Me, myself and I...

Hello readers,

I'm back after another long absence. What can I say, not much.. I would love to write more often, but I learnt from me that I'll only write when all of me wants it, can't be only a part.

I've changed my blog layout because I pretend to write more and different subjects. Lets see if this time I'll be able to at least have a post per month about any subject.

I'm still in New Jersey-USA working for Alcatel-Lucent in 4G LTE. I can't complain about the life here and the work environment, they both great and very pleasant. But I do miss my old life, not so old if I take in account that I'm leaving here since 2010. But I miss my travels around the world, meeting new people, new countries, new cultures, the crazy parties I use to have in everywhere I go with my friends. 

I really miss the time in Malaysia, there I really had quality of life, in all aspects. Ok not all of them, because the work wasn't that great, but all the rest was simply amazing and awesome. Those times was definitely the best 6 months in my life.

In here what is missing? I think is missing more social life. What defines how good and happy is the place you are is the social life. And here my social is close to none, I only deal with my housemates and my family once a month when I go to Boston. You guys should be thinking why is that if you live close to the best city in the world, New York,

Here where I live Summit, NJ my house is located in a residential and family area, super quite and nice to rest. But not so good to socialize and make new friends. At work the average age of the company should be around 45 years, I've started hanging out with some soccer friends from work.

The nightlife in NYC is kind of awkward, because is so nice and glamorous but at the same time annoying. Annoying because to get in in the best clubs or you go with several girls or you have to spend at least 300$ in bottle  and once you got in is kind of hard to socialize with other groups. At least in my case is hard as hell, because I'm very shy. But definitely I will have to do something about it, most probably next year I'll still be around here.

Being here I've gain the love for fitness and working out my body, but that I'll talk more in another post.

Somebody has told me that: Never forget the lonely never win.

I couldn't agree more, we were made to be somebody other half.

I had so much already in my few years of life that I learnt from my own histories. A lot of good friends says that I'm afraid of living a new love, and because of that I've became a colder person because of all my not happy endings.

I prefer to think the other way around. In my opinion the way I see life is the way most of the people should see it. Is true that we would see less romantic histories but is also true we would see less people getting hurt. The way I see it is in the realistic way, live today because we don't know if will have tomorrow.

Live one day after the other.

I know is wrong thinking that I can manage to fall in love or not, think I can control my feelings. But right now that's the way my brain and heart are plugged to work. For me fall in love is more than the act of just being lead for the feelings, lead by the love and the theory of having love all the rest will come after.

Will love come when you don't have a strong friend relationship with your loved one? Will love be enough when you start having argues day after day and not having the capacity of seat and talking? Will love be enough to hold a beginning distance relationship? Will love be enough when you start being suspicious about you loved one? Will love be enough to feed all the house expenses? Will love be enough to surpass the absence?

With all this questions I don't want you to think that I'm against love, not at all. But for me to fall in love these days won't be so simple as it use to be. And trust me I'm a lover. I do love to love and love to be loved.

Live now life is short time is luck...

I've just came last week from 10 days vacations in Portugal. Once again as always I've had a great time with my family and friends, I'd rest a lot and recharge batteries till the end of the year.

But when I was there a feeling came around again, a feeling that for long time I did not feel. I felt shifted.

I pass so much time out that when I'm around is normal for my friends they don't notice I'm around. For a couple of days I've stayed at night by myself at my house, just me myself and I. I really don't blame them who chose this life was me, and they just keep on living theirs.

There were some days I wanted to do something or go somewhere I've could call to one of my good friends I do have a couple, but thinking they would be doing something on their own routine I kept quite on my place.

Those days even knowing that I have a lot of friends who would do anything for me I've felt lonely and wanting to come back to Jersey. I know you will want to kill me, but you guys know I don't work very well. :)

Counting down for my 5 days vacations in Negril, Jamaica can't wait. Once I get back I'll let you guys know how was it.

And for now is all folks, see you guys soon...